This post comes from my reply to the comment in my previous post, "God and My Car Accident":
The suffering that we experience (or fear "what if?" we will experience) can seem overwhelming at times, can't it? Difficulties and suffering have overwhelmed me many times, and I could not fathom how God was still good through it all. I have even yelled at God before, accusing Him of wrongdoing, and so frustrated that He did not do things the way I thought He should.
I think it's dangerous to get stuck in such a place of accusing God or writing Him off as NOT good, but I am very thankful for His love through my honesty with Him. In fact, I have found it much better to be honest with Him about my feelings than to pretend that I'm not mad at Him. He knows it anyway, and I really can't move forward until I'm honest with Him and with myself.
Yes, He has steadfastly loved me even when I have been in those places of spiritual tantrums. If you have seen a toddler throw tantrums, you can picture how a child can accuse her father of wrongdoing even when he has been doing what is good and best for her all along!.
God has loved me through my honesty and raging emotions. And -- when I choose to move forward with Him in His ways and in His timing -- He has faithfully brought me through the process to realize and rejoice in the truth of His goodness once again. Easy? No. Worth it? Yes.