As I have grown in understanding the depth of Christ's love and the power of the cross, it has been easier to be honest with myself and with God about my struggles and sins.
But what motivated me to be honest with God when I didn't trust in His love or the cross?
(1) One motivation was that I realized that God knows everything anyway. I could pretend that He didn't know the true me, but I would just be fooling myself.
(2) Also, it only made sense to me that if I was going to discover truth about God, I also needed to be truthful about myself.
(3) If doing something hard like being honest with myself and with God had the potential to set me free, then I decided that kind of hard choice was worth it.
(1) One motivation was that I realized that God knows everything anyway. I could pretend that He didn't know the true me, but I would just be fooling myself.
(2) Also, it only made sense to me that if I was going to discover truth about God, I also needed to be truthful about myself.
(3) If doing something hard like being honest with myself and with God had the potential to set me free, then I decided that kind of hard choice was worth it.
As I heard musician Dennis Jernigan share, if you go to doctors but you don't tell them where it hurts, they cannot help you. Likewise, when we come to the healer of our souls, He wants us to tell Him "where it hurts" so that He can help us. I used to fear condemnation if I was honest with God about my sins. But I eventually realized that Jesus came into the world to save us, not to condemn us (John 3:17). He wants us to be honest about where we hurt, struggle, and sin so that He can heal us! In my own journey I have found that honesty has been extremely important in finding healing and freedom.
That is why I included "Absolute honesty with self and God" as the first principle that I need to practice in order to grow in my understanding of God's love and the power of the cross. (See the "cross chart" on the second slide of Learning to Live the Spirit-Filled Life (v2-20-2011b)). Scrupulosity OCD, doubts about the Bible, depression, fear, and other struggles were hard to be honest about, but I never would have found freedom if I hadn't first said, "Lord, this is where it hurts."