Most of my blog writing since August has dealt with challenges that I struggled with related to mental illness, bondage to fear, and persistent doubts. I have written about my challenges with (1) my pride, (2) questioning God's goodness and His love, (3) being a 'two-potter', (4) dark nights of the soul, (5) being honest with God, and (6) having wrong expectations of God.
Another challenge that I struggled with, particularly in relation to OCD, was hyperresponsibility. For example, when I struggled with an OCD fear of contaminating other people, I was being hyperresponsible. I originally viewed my actions as taking whatever precautions I saw necessary to protect other people since I was concerned about their health, but through counseling I came to see how several of my behaviors were in fact taking much more responsibility than was appropriate for me to take for others' health.
A related challenge was struggling with what I am responsible for and what God is responsible for. Again through counseling, I came to realize that I was taking a huge amount of responsibility for some things that God is ultimately responsible for, while in other ways I was not taking enough responsibility for things that I truly am responsible for.
I plan to write more on this topic later.