I'll be traveling at the end of this week to visit family until the end of July. If I can't add to this blog while traveling, I'll plan to pick up in early August with more of my story.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Sunday, July 11, 2010
The Joyful Embrace of God's Grace
Before I continue with my story, I'd like to share the poem "My Prodigal" by Beth Moore (Further Still, p. 114). It's been such an encouragement to me at my low points because it reminds me of God's heart of love that longs to embrace me with grace. I hope it encourages you as well.
"My Prodigal"
I'll run to you when skies aren't blue
And life has let you down
When you've lost hope -- the will to cope
And rainbows seem to frown
When childhood dreams are lost in streams
Of steady woes and noes
When fairy tales are scary veils
Of families turned to foes
When you set out to end self doubt
And end up more confused
When messes made are hands you played
And there is no excuse
When all you planned has turned to sand
Mirages disappeared
When giving up's the only cup
To wash away your fears
When nothing's left -- no promise kept
But one I made to you
And in the distance I can sense you
Take a step or two
With open arms -- a cloak from harms
Pace quickened like a youth's
I'll sing,
"My child's come home again!"
And I will run to you!
Thursday, July 8, 2010
My Story - Conquering Stress and Hyperventilation Syndrome
Through various stressful events of the last few years, I have discovered different ways that my body responds to stress and anxiety. One response that I have experienced is hyperventilation syndrome (HVS). I experienced HVS for the first time last summer. I hadn't experienced it since last summer and it seems that I have grown so much since that time, so I was surprised when a case of it started a couple of weeks ago.
Last summer's experience with hyperventilation syndrome was horrible. I even woke up many nights with different parts of my face numb because I had hyperventilated while sleeping! My daily functioning and decision-making were greatly inhibited by the combination of HVS and major OCD struggles.
It was a bit embarrassing to admit to myself and to others that parts of my face would go numb at night because of my response to anxiety and stress, but I'm so thankful that I was honest about this weakness with people I trusted. If I hadn't been honest with myself and others, I doubt that I would have learned how to conquer it. But, thankfully, discussing the problem with others led to healing and victory over that horrible time.
Since I learned last summer how to recognize and to fight against HVS, I have been much more successful at handling it this time around. And since OCD greatly exacerbated the HVS last summer, all the things that I have learned about fighting OCD since then have also been instrumental in reducing the severity of my current HVS struggle. In addition, because I have experienced God's faithfulness so abundantly and consistently over this past year, I am currently trusting more in God's goodness, purposes, and love than I did a year ago. I have even regularly had God's peace that passes understanding in the midst of hyperventilating.
Last summer's experience with hyperventilation syndrome was horrible. I even woke up many nights with different parts of my face numb because I had hyperventilated while sleeping! My daily functioning and decision-making were greatly inhibited by the combination of HVS and major OCD struggles.
It was a bit embarrassing to admit to myself and to others that parts of my face would go numb at night because of my response to anxiety and stress, but I'm so thankful that I was honest about this weakness with people I trusted. If I hadn't been honest with myself and others, I doubt that I would have learned how to conquer it. But, thankfully, discussing the problem with others led to healing and victory over that horrible time.
Since I learned last summer how to recognize and to fight against HVS, I have been much more successful at handling it this time around. And since OCD greatly exacerbated the HVS last summer, all the things that I have learned about fighting OCD since then have also been instrumental in reducing the severity of my current HVS struggle. In addition, because I have experienced God's faithfulness so abundantly and consistently over this past year, I am currently trusting more in God's goodness, purposes, and love than I did a year ago. I have even regularly had God's peace that passes understanding in the midst of hyperventilating.
Note: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hyperventilation_syndrome has a description of HVS
Note: One of the books that my counselor used with me in discussing HVS was The Anxiety Cure by Dr. Archibald Hart, who writes from a Christian perspective.
Note: One of the books that my counselor used with me in discussing HVS was The Anxiety Cure by Dr. Archibald Hart, who writes from a Christian perspective.
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